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Thank you person who sent this to Post Secret.

I continuously wonder why I'm in a place like this. Mongolia is not exactly where I saw myself ever living.

But, I think at some point, you just choose to be content. A point where you choose joy.No, I do not enjoy living in negative degrees but I enjoy getting to know my brothers and sisters.

Otherwise, I would have never gotten to go to church in a tent (ger) every single week.

I would never have come to know an obscure language.

I would have never known that words like Hallelujah, Hosanna, and Amen are the same in Mongolian and English.

I would have never been so convinced that my vocation simply is belonging to Jesus,

whatever that looks like


wherever that is.

I would have never been able to teach Kindergartners how to tickle or play the funny face game.

There are days when the wind is so strong by the lumber yard that saw dust filled my eyes and I wonder how I got here.

But, then I go "skiing" with the youth at Bogd Khaan mountain.

[By skiing they meant sledding.]

And I see this...

And I realize--I know--that even though I don't understand why I'm here, I'm glad that I am.

I have chosen joy.


  1. aww i can't see the top picture from postsecret

  2. yea you! You are such an inspiration to all of us! We love you:)


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Jesus, I come into the warmth of your presence
knowing that you are
the very emptiness of God.

I come before you
holding the water jar of my life.

Your eyes meet mine
and I know what I'd rather not know.

I came to be filled
but I am already full.

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This is my sickness

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that crowd out
your healing presence.

A holy knowing steals inside my heart
and I see a painful truth.

I don't need more
I need less
I am too full.

I am full of things that block out
your golden grace.

I am smothered by gods of my own creation
I am lost in the forest of my false self
I am full of my own opinions and narrow attitudes
full of fear, resentments, control
full of self-pity, and arrogance.

Slowly this terrible truth
pierces my heart
I am so full there is no room for you.

Contemplatively, and with compassion
you ask me to reach into my water jar.

One by one, Jesus, you enable me
to lift out the things
that are a hindrance to my wholeness.

I take each one to my heart and